A week before I got married, I went to my gynecologist because of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) symptoms. Two days after my husband and I came back from our honeymoon, my gynecologist asked me to return to the office to receive further testing. The results of the test came back and the doctor informed me that I had cancer in my reproductive system, everything needed to be removed, and I will not be able to have any children. My husband quickly became my strength and reassured me that everything will be alright. We prayed with our pastor and obtained a second opinion. The second doctor’s findings were that I did not have cancer, but I would still need surgery to remove the pre-cancer.
The surgery was successful. However, months later, we received news from my doctor that we would not be able to conceive on our own. My body stopped ovulating and I needed treatment to help us conceive. We quickly turned to God and prayed. Our prayer was, “Whether it’s through treatment, adoption, or God allows us to conceive on our own, we believe His word on becoming parents and He will receive all the glory.” A week from that prayer, we were pregnant with our first child! We named her Lilian.
At 20 weeks of pregnancy, Lilian was born and lived for about 10 minutes and then went to be with the Lord. That was the hardest time of our lives. We got pregnant a second time and miscarried at 12 weeks. We could not understand why God allowed us to go through this. It took a year after the second miscarriage to get pregnant again. I was extremely nervous that I would lose another baby once again. We are so grateful that God protected that pregnancy and allowed us to have a little boy, who we named Matthias. Matthias means “Gift of God”. After Matthias was born, I gave birth to my second child Nathaniel, which also means “Gift of God”.
Only God knows why we needed to endure the heartbreak that we did. I am grateful for our two little blessings and we look forward to our third blessing being born in October.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.